We are a social species. Even hermits talk to themselves, the birds and inanimate objects. Believe me, I know. Being social is innate and nurtured. Family, neighbors, friends, school, work, we are smothered in it. We set out to explore other people and easily identify their love, kindness, goodness and beauty even though they fail to recognize it. We do the same to ourselves. We disregard accomplishments and compliments from those who more clearly see us. Instead, we focus on our self-perceived inadequacies and failures. Never good enough, we brainwash ourselves into believing we are worthless, dumb and ugly.
So, we search and discover more people who are so wonderful inside and out and find they question their value too. It is so vivid to us that we are unable to resist them and want to be a part of their beauty as friends and lovers. We hope we are clever enough to bamboozle them into thinking we have some to share in return.
Most wars in this world occur in our own heads. It is a continuous battle and until we undo our hostile self-torture, the war will continue. I am changing course and choosing peace. It is time to take an introspective expedition to the inner core of me. I am in search of I, the one others plainly see. It’s time to reverse the tsunami tide of negative and flood it with positive thoughts of self. We seek to see the goodness in others, it’s way past due we do the same for ourselves. That’s what life is, looking for I and accepting what we find as treasure and loving ourselves instead of constantly beating our self up.
I invite you to join me in this journey, but no self-centered, egotistical, fat heads who are in love with themselves are welcome.